Sometimes,
I wonder if I am the only one I want to be with. The only one I am made for.
Well, I do understand myself, know myself better than people who have tried and
succeeded (to an extent) in tearing down my defenses. But that is the brain
talking. Heart, the heart has its own different language. It’s guarded. Walls,
guard right up, defenses. I have always shunned people out of my comfort zone.
May be, because I’m too comfortable with myself. Not may be, definitely! Sometimes
I wish I could unlearn what taught me to be so shielded. Feel freely; trust too
much; love a lot, all without having to be afraid of getting hurt. But that’s
what reminds me. Having done all this is what pushes me down. They say, “Even
the best fall down sometimes”. I have been down on the floor for long. Far too
long. Perhaps I had made up my mind that someone will come along and extend a
hand. Tear down my defense with a strut. But sometimes, you have to be your own
hero.
“People may let you down, every once in a while. But what you learn out of situations, never will."
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